Right back at you…
For years I have been scaring people with my dark and depressed behavior and when I was a teen by plans for self murder. Now years later the shoe is on the other foot. I am helping a person who I met though the dbsa and she has plans to kill herself by her 41st birthday, Oct 12th 2011 and she has the means to do it (od of tricyclic antidepressants) I am scared for her – and if she kills herself I fear that I will be so sorrowful I may do the same. I challenged her with this that her end could be my end too, this really made her think. She said you mean you care, for she could only see caring in life and death terms. Believe me I know the feeling. My wife was mad since I did not return until 11:30pm when the meeting started at 6:30pm. I have since made up with her however my heart is heavy knowing my friend has a date, a means and plan for end of life.
And why? Because she is not married, has no children, she says she has no one, she keeps quoting margo hemmingway who also comitted suicide at 41 it has become her idol.
Dear God please save this person, dear god give me the strength insight and guidence to help me help them. I wish I was superman and I could save her magically. The challenge is that she is super bright and logical arguments have to be made well.
Please help me God.