Well it is an interesting course of events everything I wanted is happening.
I wanted to feel successful, and while I didn’t think I could get into MBA school I was accepted. I took my first class my team liked me and ended up doing well, I feel sucessful.
I always wanted a group of people who I care about and care about me. A group that I can share my true feelings depressed or happy and they r there. I want to be a positive helpful force in their lives – I want to make a difference. I feel that I am achieving having this group of friends, it makes me feel happy.
What happens now? I am a little scared when I am going to drop down into the darkness… When/if the depression will come back. I am going to keep doing what I am doing- eating 3 meals a day, sleeping al least 5hrs per night, meds, herbals and exercise.
It is kind of like being a different person, I find myself cleaning, working, caring for others… Maybe this is just the manic side, maybe it is summer and the sun.
Thank you for another day, I need to remember these times for when/if the dark days come.