To be honest I learned that everytime I told anyone about these issues, I would almost 95% of the time loose them as friends, 3% of the time sent to the councilors office
and maybe about 2% of the time they would accept me and still be my friends. It is a lot of rejection and I only have about 2 people who I can share with and about 7 people who
know that I have this as an issue. (and all of you) What is the issue, dark thoughts, thoughts about self harm.. dewelling on thoughts of suicide… but I am learning that these are
really just thoughts of escape, like maybe I did not learn good coping skills.. or the deaths of my two step brothers brought me closer to the darkness. Which every it is, I know that
I can keep control of myself and I will not let it ruin all my relationships. I will keep myself safe.
Thanks for listening..
Maybe for you it can provide inspiration and maybe even take the first step to understand awareness.