I started by a comment by my manager and since them I have been spinning downward. “Please explain the changes on all the (data) maps which you have created.” Since then my mind has cycle down, on itself I am not sure what to do.
I am not feeling well, it is like suddenly I am friendless, yet I am not alone, thank god for family.
Only to send a sappy email to my manager, and cc my coworkers about not being defensive but he should be understanding as we have just learned this new skill of mapping. Ah well, I know that the work is only a thin vale for a trigger (something which provokes a response) and my job it is beware and stay in control. I have not exercised in several days. I guess, I am subjected to hard exercise as the only real way to regulate myself, there could be worse fates…
Well I am falling back the emergency antipychotic. (first time this year.. 12 hours of relief.. kinda)
I will be back and stronger than ever, just need another day to grant me new set of cards.
(lastly, I can see Condalisa Rice (really) speak however it is $100 per seat, but I am thinking of going.)